[Rosette]

I have been with my boyfriend for 2 years. He is my best friend and I dont know what I would do without him. January of this year I lost our baby at 19 weeks into my pregnancy. Since then he will not committ to trying to have a baby. He says yes lets do it, but his actions just doesnt seem like he really wants to. I am almost 38, he will be 41. He has never been married, nor does he have any children. I have one child, she is now 12. I would love to finally after all the years of being a single mom to have a family, I just dont know if he will ever give me this. We do not live together and he doesnt seem to want to move forward. He just recently bought a house, he never mentions that we will live there together. Today we went over to the new house to do a couple of things. We met a couple of the neighbors, naturally they assumed we were a married couple. The neighbor asked him where he is currenlty living, he made sure to tell her where he lives and then mentioned where i lived. I felt alittle embarrassed and very awkard. I am having a hard time getting excited about his plans for his new house. I feel like an outsider. I guess I should as it is not my house, but i just feel if i was planning on having a baby with this man, i was hoping he would make it our home. What should I do? Does anyone have some helpful advice for this woman who maybe in DENIAL about what is really going on here...please help, I feel very hurt