[Tangled]

What do you THINK i should Do about all this? Its Seriously Twisted me


Age 5-6: I can only remember this far Back. Things where pretty good in life i was still living with my mother and father they seemed to be in endless love. Oh how the mighty fallen When i reached Ages.

Age 7-8: Things got Bad i Mean Real bad. In the space of a Year. Is tared hearing "Stories" Abot my mother from my father how she was a tart and How she stole. But my mother never Responded to any of this even though she new it was going on "Behind her back" Occasionally My Dad would Beat my mother when she Had a drink He would scream Something like "How Dare you get drunk arround kids you ****ing *****-bag" But she drank because She needed too. She was scared and wanted to be happy but sadly. Booze got the better of her. she moved off Lager and moved onto harsher stuff Like Cider, Vodka
and Whisky.
I remember My mother 100% But only because she was nice to me she Was very loving and My father wasnt even there for my Christening!! How poor can you get. I mean C'mon. But he expected so much from me even at this age. I was never Athletic and i Was amazingly bright instead. But i got in with the wrong Crowed. And used my Smarts for mere Childrens Interrigation. Bullying and Crap. But i got that frommy father hitting my Mother. "Monkey See monkey do". Bullying Was one thing. Fighting was another. In my first fist fight i Was only 7 and a Half and i was fighting with Micheal Holmes. What a birk. The reason why is He insulted my familly. Anyway I won because He was too scared to move. And that shocked me. Being a bully is Powwer.. This all continued untill Ages..

Age: 8-9: It wasnt just me Fighting. Mom too He actually punched her. When i heard this it felt like being hit by a train. My mother drew the line. She Left. After Insulting Me and My brother Greatly. Mostly me. Because she said "Your Just like your father" among other stuff.. That got to me. As soon as she said that Time flew. I cant remember anything untill well I was 11. Big Boy now.

Ages: 11-12: I became a Monster. Really. Grades Sunk. More Fights. More Violence More Everything bad. And My dad was so proud. I think he was making me into the creature of Divine Bullying Powwer. At the Age of 12 i Put a stop to it. And grew Some Effing Balls

I Firstly. Stopped bulling and said sorry to everyone i did.. (You dont know how hard that is) and Seccondly i Asked my dadcan i see my Mom. He back-handed me across my head. It hurt alot. He then said "No ****ing chance nothing in this world will let you see that ***** ever again" I raised my head and higherd my chin. Looked him in the eyes and Told him "Try stop me" This was a big moment for me because as soon as i said That i Told him "If you even lay a finger on me Ill get you sued. Ape" All at the age of 12!!
A few weeks later i Seen my mother..
Im now 16 And life is still Hell even if Every two weeks i get to go and See the only thing that is keeping me alive

Im a mothers-Boy (:



x
]]P.S[[ Theres More too it than just this.

[mollymae]

Hi welcome to families.com. You've had a hard start in life but I applaud you for making the choice to change. You know you are the master of your own destiny. No one else. You've come so far and you can do anything you want with your life all you have to do is decide what you'd like.

[Tangled]

Yeah It was a Great Decision i made. But ill Not be able to pull back the grades i Lost. I blame myself. No others for it. Ill be suprised if i make it into College. And if i dont Ill do some Other Course. I have my Life Mapped. But i need to not be lazy. get off my Bum and Go search for Jobs. And Open a bank Account. (Ive applied for Four Jobs)

[mollymae]

Is there anything job/career wise you particulary want to do?

[vanaden]

I personally understand your pain, and I applaude you for wanting to make a life for yourself a be responsible. That's awesome.

I come from a digustingly unhealthy home myself, full of mental and physical abuse, drug /alcohol abuse/addiction and misery. For years I let the depression take hold and control my life. Everything that they had done controlled who I was.
I guess it just comes down to the decision you make, are you going to let them control who you are supposed to become? OR will you overcome? It seems to me you are an OVERCOMER!
I don't know all of your situation but I feel for you. I'm 25 now with a family of my own and I vowed early that I would never make the same mistakes. Don't let your past determine your future. Have you tried counseling or church?
Good luck.

[mcmama]

You know, in abusive families, whatever the abused spouses faults are can often be magnified by the abuser. It's a way of justifying what they are doing.

And now with mom out of the way, looks like you are the punching bag.

You have to take charge of your own life. Are you still in school? Are there any counselors you can talk to about being hit? Because if you are 16, in the USA you are still a minor and being backhanded across the head is abuse. So is being kept from seeing your mom, unless there is a court order keeping her away from you.

You deserve to see for yourself what is going on, and take charge of that. Find support for you being your own self wherever you can. Just don't get involved with drugs and alcohol, since that will feel better but only make it worse.

My oldest son got bullied a lot in school, and when he got older he did a study of bullying. He found that people with your experiences are pretty typical among those who bully other children - because this is what they learn at home, and they also learn that bullying is a way to have power over someone else. So glad you are determined to unlearn this.

Stay true to yourself - and above all, stay true.