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The twins are 9 weeks old--still exclusively breastfeeding. They even had started to go longer between night feedings (Elise over 5 hours and Eliot over 4). The last two nights they have not been sleeping. They have not been napping or sleeping at night. Last night I saw every hour on the clock. The night before was not much better. I am so tired and at my wits end. I go back to work in three weeks and if this keeps up I dont know what I will do. I HAVE to be reasonably rested for my work. I have to be able to think fast and act quickly (NICU RN). At this point I would be a zombie at work. I am supposed to go to work tomorrow for a meeting and I dont have enough breastmilk for them to eat while I am gone. I had almost enough stored, but this morning I couldnt take it any more and had to sleep so I woke DH at 5am and he fed them each a bottle and I was able to sleep for 3 hours. I cant seem to get it together. I know I cant compare babies, but one coworker (baby 1 week younger than the twins and BFing) has a baby that is sleeping 8 hours a night--in a row! My sister has a baby two weeks younger than the twins (FFing) and my nephew is sleeping 6 hours in a row. DH asked me "what would switching to formula solve?" I dont honestly know other than the care of the babies would not always fall on me and the pressure of having enough breast milk for two babies to have while I am at work will be lessened. Other than that--I dont think it would solve anything but I dont know what else to do. The babies are coming up on the growth charts (from 5th percentile to 10th) and are healthy. I am very grateful for that and that I CAN breastfeed the babies, I just dont know what else to do.