[coopersgirl]

Hi my name is charon and i would like to start my own blog if that is possible the topic would be depression and the murder of my uncle so i guess basically how to avenge his death like solving the case and being able to forgive and wondering if my family has the kennedy curse on it
i know that i have already written their are so many goal i would like to reach Oh and awesome news i recieved an email yesterday from the detectives of my uncles case informing me that he will going infront of the grand jury on October 6th,2008 to hand down indictments and will arresting the suspects several days after that ...it jwas such a joy to hear i was on thephone at my desk talking to my grandmother (My uncle's mom who also helped raise me me and my uncle were extremly close he was my mothers brother who also was deceased she died when i was a baby thusleaving me with my grandma who i fondly call ma my uncle mike and my aunt lynn his sister her sister to raise me she lives in brooklyn newyork i live upstate newyork) so it was awesome to see that pop up while it work it lifted my spirits all day and still even now.
I know that i am a 29year old black woman who has had a hard weird life thats my description of it i know my rac is not important but i just want whoever reads this to kinda get a picture of me i dont know why but maybe you could feel some vibe that im an alright person with a good heart i may not always be sure of a lot of things but i know i have a good heart...anyhow i am slighlty removed from my father he didnt raise me after my mom passed he was always their though but he didnt want to take me from my grandmother he felt she had already suffered a great loss (My mom she was only 19 years old) thats how i ended up being raised by my mothers siblings and her mom my grandmother the thimes i did try to live with my dad we just couldnt get along i had some terrible times with him trying to raise me i was already raised it was too late for him i guess whatever reason it wasnt working
i ran away ,had sex early you name it i did it except get pregnant and do drugs ........
fast foward to today ...i have had trouble finishing things for the past six years i am like an emotional roller coaster...the thing is i know exactly what it is that i want out of life
i want to be a writer
i want to become a nurse praticioner
i want to buy and sell homes
i want to be able to take my grandmother to a nice fancy dinner
i want to learn how to drive
i want to earn my ged
i took a lot for me to admit the last on e most people look at that and judge me i make no excuse but i do want these things this site gives me the feeling that i will not regret putting myself out their like this anyway

oh and i havee just gotten my home study ged packet i complete my first assigments tonight (i work full time so its hard to fit in the work but i am !)
i am 29 year old fool in love me and boyfriend of a year are renting to own a home a nice guy really hard worker wants good things from life and hes 8 years younger than me! lol