Hello all, this is my first post and it looks like I'm going to dive right in, so hang on!
I have been single (divorced) for almost 6 years. I've been married twice. The first marriage of 13 years and three children later ended because he was abusive. I was young and tried everything to make it work. My second marriage .. my husband cheated on me. He was the love of my life, and I spent two years drinking my sorrows away.
I am now 49 ... my last year in my 40's

I am happy living alone, however I am starting to miss having someone close. I have dated (twice). The first guy was a radio disk jockey. He became "possessive" after one month! Yikes. I called that off right away. It was extream. The second one wanted to get married after two weeks. huhum. Nuf said.
I can't find anyone, and to be honest I don't know where to look. I went in the bar a couple of weeks ago and guess what I found? The same men that were there six years ago.
I have this neighbor whom I know has a crush on me, but he has never come right out and said it. He is much older then I am, but I'm not sure how much because I didn't ask him. He looks to be in his 70's? I do know he's retired. He's always buying me stuff, emailing and calling. I'm constantly throwing the word "friend" in my emails back to him, however he seems very adimate about pursuing me. I'm starting to think maybe I should think about this .. because I don't think there are any men my age left. But then I think I may be setteling if I do that, and I wouldn't want to do that to him. That wouldn't be fare. So ... here I am ... confused, lonely, and I have this sad feeling I will be alone the rest of my life.
I think I've written enough for my first post. Sorry to have gone on so long, but that's me
