[gptrp]

Its my first day here and am here to vent...it's the very reason why I signed in at the first place. My friends are all away and quite busy these days that I felt I am gonna explode if I still keep this inside me, so here it is..
I hate my husband!! He is so selfish, narrow-minded and arrogant. Our marriage supposed to be fairytale like. I am his first love and likewise, but we ended parting ways 4 years after being on an "on and off" relationship. Three years after, we got in touch through friendster. He called and wanted to be friends at first. His life was a mess that time and I am in a long-distant relationship. He pursued me when he learned that my guy and I are planning to move in together when he comes back. He traveled 2 hours by boat and 12 hours by land to see me and persuade me to choose him since we promised each other before to get married when we see each other again and we're still single. I told him, I will consider it, to give me time which he didn't. To cut the story short, I ended being married to him on a civil rites.

Where we are now. Here I am, barely 2 years married to him with a 4-month-old baby and signed up to a website where I can vent my disgust to this person whose supposed to be the "love of my life." It was my fault. I let myself bullied into this marriage, out of "first love blues".

What I hate about him. He assumed immediately that all that I possesed is conjugal after we got married. He asked for my spare cellphone (I owned 3 anyways, for different networks), I gave it to him willingly since were gonna be apart for the next few months waiting for his "work transfer" (he ownes 1 expensive mobile phone), only to learn that he gave it to his sister as a payment for a sum he owes her. Next thing, he guilt-trip me into joining his religion since he would not be allowed to go stay as a member since he married a "woman of the world" (that is how they call people outside their religion), As if they don't live in this world, duh!! So there was I, since I knew he would be a lost soul without this "religion" of his (its not even faith, belive me, its more of a cult), I gave way. He even promised that if he would be a full-pledged member again, he would never get mad at me, DUH!! More to come, I ended having a migraine just by revisiting these thoughts... though I feel better, its a few pounds out of my chest..

[MissyChrissy]

I guess I don't understand what you need help with. It sounds to me like you've made up your mind about him. According to your post, you've already made some mistakes in agreeing to pretend to be something you're not. I say it's time to come clean and just file for divorce. This isn't about what anyone else thinks, this is about happiness that comes from inside. You will not find happiness pretending to believe in a religion you don't.