Please call your doctor ASAP to talk about this! You sound desperate and it is scaring me! PLEASE do not do anything rash! Your babies are depending on you, especially the lil' one in your tummy!
Pray... Pray for God to be with you, to help you, to give you strength. You will get through this!
I am so stinking MAD at your DH for making you feel this way!!!
Please call you doctor. I am praying for your comfort and strength during this difficult time!!!