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I struggle with my divorce and the destruction of the family my ex-wife and I had together. We we're married many years and have two beautiful children together. I live with constant sorrow and regret, although both of us have remarried. I am at fault for the destruction of our marriage. I was unfateful to her. I am so ashamed. I make no excuses, I allowed myself to believe that she neglected me and used that to justify my conduct. I engaged in self deception and went against my values and beliefs. My heart is broken, I am broken. I have no one that I can discuss this with. It's Christmas, I will only see my children on Friday 12/26. I never discuss the situtation with my current wife, but she senses my sorrow and it is clear that she has no empathy for me. She becomes angry if I even express sorrow at not being able to spend Christmas with my kids. Sometimes I am overcome with grief. I cry in private everyday. I have always been a strong man. I never cried before. I need advice, I need to learn how to move on with my life. I pray for God's mercy and forgiveness. I have paid and continue to pay a terrible price for the sins I have committed. I think about my ex-wife and my children everyday. We have been apart for 5 years and divorced for almost 2 years.