[wanttobemommy]

I have been having terrible dreams since I was worried about my AFP test. Well now I am freaking out because a stupid lady mentioned that she thought I had low amniotic fluid since I am almost 20wks and not showing AT ALL. Well I brushed her off but obviously my brain still had it running through it when I went to bed. I have been having dreams that the fluid levels were so low that they gave me steriod shots and sent me to Sioux Falls which is the closest hospital with a NICU (2 hours away) and told me to be prepared to be a July mommy instead of a September mommy. I have been having cramping which I am pretty sure is not round ligament pain.

I was told my cervix was closed when I went to the ER (a montha go) but (TMI) I got used to checking my cervix when TTC so I checked it out of curiosity and it is no longer thick and long. It is short and soft like I would be about to O. I am freaking out now more than ever because my sister had her premies at 27 and 28wks. She had cervical issues with both of her younger kids after having a full term baby. So between the cervix thing and the dreams of low fluid levels I am FREAKED OUT!!!

My dr isnt even in town until tomorrow which is when my appt is and I will be asking him to check my cervix just to make me feel better. I am just worried that when I have my ultrasound on Monday that I will be told my cervix is short or that I have low fluid and then be screwed. The hospital here will not let me be on bed rest or anything here. Everything is done in Sioux Falls. If there is any complication I will need my SIL in Sioux Falls to take Jaxon for us because we have no money for day care and then if she takes him then I could still see him. But I am so worried about it that I am freaking out. I know I shouldnt be since there really is the possibility that everything is fine. I have found that I over think everything.