[mlcassid]

I am going through losing my first pregnancy and I'm devastated. Everything was looking great with the blood tests. I'd started bleeding and they did an ultrasound at 6 weeks and found a sub-chorionic hematoma (a small blood clot in the uterus). I was told it would re-absorb over time and everything looked good. They saw the heartbeat and things were great. A few days later I began to bleed again, but heavier so in I went for another ultrasound/blood test. Again, the nurse said everything seemed fine and the heartbeat was even faster this time and all looked right. After a short wait, the doctor came in to speak to us and she seemed so grim. She was sorry to say that my pregnancy had implanted in a dangerous place: in my upper uterus just outside the fallopian tube. It was not down in the lining where it was supposed to be and would rupture at any time. It's called a "cornual pregnancy" or "interstitial pregnancy". If it had implanted 1 cm lower it would have been fine. She told me I was in danger of losing my life, and my uterus at best. She told me my best option at the moment was to go to the emergency room where they were waiting for me, and to have a methotrexate shot to stop my HcG levels from climbing and eventually end my pregnancy. My hcg levels were at 50,000 so they were concerned the shot wouldn't work (since the levels were so high) We were totally shocked and she said my case is extremely rare: 2% of ectopic pregnancies are like mine. Why can't I have these odds to win the lottery?? We went and had the tests and the shot and it's been a nightmare ever since knowing there is a life ending inside of me. They said it would take several weeks for everything to happen and I just don't know how to cope or how to move on to the next step. I went in the other day and they saw that my hcg levels have plateaued and are now watching for them to decline. The ultrasound showed that the heartbeat has stopped and now we just have to wait. I feel so isolated and alone. I don't know where I fit in: it's not a miscarriage, but it's not a tubal pregnancy. I try to be grateful that they found this early (thanks to the hematoma I otherwise never would have known until my uterus ruptured and was too late). Has anyone gone through this? I'm wondering how a future pregnancy might go and if it's possible to get pregnant soon (after waiting the prescribed time). I guess I'm just looking for hope and to know if anyone out there has had this happen to them. Now that the fear for my own life is over, I'm now finding that coping with the loss is much harder than I ever imagined.

[poliscmjr]

I was dx with an a Ectopic/abnormal pregnancy this past week. My numbers weren't rising like yours. Last week they sent me for an u/s and nothing was seen but they thought it was just early. That maybe I conceieved later. Monday night I had spotting and had to go to the ER for more blood work. It was determined that my pregnancy ectopic/abnormal because my numbers were not doubling as they should. I was given the shot in the early morning Tuesday hours, and don't know what to do with myself. I just want this part of my life to be over to possibly be able to move on. My doctor said that we should have no problems getting pregnant again, but I will be monitored heaviliy because of this.
If you need to talk about anything I can relate as I am going thru what you are right now. Please send me a pm. Even if is to talk about the shot (which i have issues with)

[skidoo_grl]

I am very sorry for your lose. When I lost Jeremiah I felt the same way you are feeling. It wasn't a miscarriage, because he was alive for 20mins, but he was born at 17 weeks so everyone calls it that. If you need anything, someone to talk to, someone to yell at... just msg me. I'm here if ya need someone.

[quagmire8]

Well, I didnt not have a tubal pregnancy, just a m/c. What you guys have been through is so terrible and not fair. Take some time for 'you' before TTC again, remember to take time to grieve your loss, because it is OK to do that. Thinking of you, and wishing you the best!

[rachelsmummy]

Hunni, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I have never had a mc, but my darling daughter Rachel was born sleeping in 2003, due to placenta abruption. Rachel has an elder brother, and now she is a big sister. Kieran was born 1yr after Rachel. As for trying to ttc, no one can tell you when the right time is. You will know yourself, when the time is right for you. Wishing you gentle days! Much love x x

[mlcassid]

Just an update: the last methotrexate shot didn't lower my hormones much. So they had to give me another one today...after several hours of waiting in the hospital for it. Lets hope this one works as I don't want surgery!

[mlcassid]

Another quick update; my levels are finally starting to drop. My test yesterday showed a drop of 12,000 in 3 days. Lets hope it goes a bit faster than this. I went from HCG being around 61,000 to now 49, 000 over 1.5 weeks' time. Praying for this to zero out quickly!!!! My next test is in 2 more days from today, so we shall see and hope for improvement.

[quagmire8]

Hope everything works out. After all you have been through, you deserve to have things go right! Goodluck to you.

[angelstarsmum]

really sorry for what your going through, keep in mind your case only happens to 2% of women so there is a time for you.x make sure all your family and friends give you all the love and support you need and you will come out the other side. my thoughts and prayers are with you.PM if you need to .sarah.

[mlcassid]

Just an update; after 3 weeks since my first shot (and 2 since my second shot), my hcg is at 19,363.7
UGH! It's going down, but so slowly. Every day I am worried that it will plateau and I will need surgery. At this rate, it will at least be another 3 weeks of waiting to zero out. I still haven't bled or anything yet and still have all my pregnancy symptoms and hormonal craziness. This slow torture stuff is a nightmare. I just want things to clear out so I can move on, but it's just not happening and I have to be patient. (Something I'm not good at) I wish I had more control over this and I don't, so that's a hard lesson to learn. I just pray every day that I won't need surgery; please send good thoughts for recovery...Thanks so much!