[HappyMomAnna]

I haven't had a lot of time to post in forums, write Blogs or even put away the Christmas decorations..... It was a very difficult month of December for our family.

Our daughter has been hospitalized again for her emotional issues.

[Alejandros Mommy]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I can only send my thought, preyers and HugZ your way and I hope this gets better for your DD and your grand DD

[oweirdo]

I am sorry to hear this, I hope you days get busy again

[QueenAngie]

So sorry that things have been so difficult
and lead up to this hospitalization.

The treatment may be exactly what she needs.

Prayers for you, for you DD, and the rest of the family!

[floridamama]

I, too, am so sorry to hear this. I can only imagine what you must be feeling right now. My prayers tonight will include you and your little girl! Hang in there...it will all get better.

[HappyMomAnna]

Thank you everyone..... This is one of those Tough-Love things I hope.... it has been a long 4-years getting to this point and hopefully one day Makala will remember this and understand it was because everyone loves her some much..... It's so hard to watch someone who can't keep herself safe--when she was smaller we could hold, or at least keep her from doing something that could end tragically....

I feel I have been in "permanent" prayer for four years now... I would imagine the Good Lord just has me as background music these days....

Sometimes being a parent means making the hardest decisions.... Right now she is safe and so is her biological little brother who we also adopted....

Thanks for the support--it is very amazing how just knowing someone hears can make such a difference....I have just about worn out my support system....

[froggles_fi]

I hope her treatment helps both her and your family. Lets us know how things go and we are always here for a chat....

[rsbg]

anna, i hope things get better soon. i know you are having a tough time, and we are here for you. prayers are sent for you and your family.

[PamConnell]

Anna, I am praying for you and Makala and your family too. From reading your blogs it sounds to me like you have done the right things for her and your blogs will help her understand someday.
I'm sure God has you as much more than background music.
Love, Pam

[HappyMomAnna]

Thank you Pam, every ones Prayers and well wishes makes an amazing difference.

We have been visiting everyday. Usually Dad one day, mom the next because Jeremiah needs a Break and can't cope with too much anymore.

All of our Birthdays are between Jan 5 and Feb 5! Four in a Row! So on Saturdays we have had Mini-Birthday Parties in the family visiting room. Yesterday was Jeremiah's.

The party didn't go very well yesterday, and hopefully the One Way Mirror had a camera or person behind it because, Makala was very Nasty to me--clearly the RAD stuff this time... I have become an expert in telling the difference between the RAD, the Developmental and Brain Damage from Fetal Alcohol Exposure and Now I can tell a Rapid Cycle Manic episode!

Makala was telling me she couldn't get a song out of her head, so I asked her to sing it to me. I have noticed since she came to live with us that she often doesn't KNOW the Words to songs and just makes a nonsense word up (Likely the Brain Damage on this issue) Anyway, I let her finish the song and gave her praise for singing so Nice!!!!

But....the idiot I am had to say, "I'm not sure I understood all the words can you sing it again?" When she got to the blah blah blah part I asked, "What was that word?" I couldn't hear it well (I am nearly deaf in the left ear due to a rock concert in 1994) anyway--she told me some NON-word and I said, "Hummm, I'm not sure that is what the word was maybe we should get the CD and figure it out since it's such a cool song! I had to do that a lot when I was a kid."

She Blew right there and started the Growling--and spitting junk.... Then started making the 'mocking' movements with her mouth....and the glaring and generally nasty junk....

Icky stuff....and I am always stuck in the situation if I don't respond she will start to become physical with my--bumping me with her shoulder--spitting or purposely trying to hurt me....if I do respond it only makes her become more nasty.... If I say anything she growls or snorts or says...Whatever B-word.

mmmmm.... It really doesn't matter what I say or how I say it if she decides to be RAD it's all over!

Tonight Daddy was about 10-mins late to visit and she called home.... I answered and she said, "Are you going to even bother to visit me today or what B-Word."

I just wanted to hang up.... but, I'm sure these calls are monitored and I just told her daddy should be there soon he was on his way.... and she just hung-up!

Daddy, came back and said they informed him that she has been off all medication completely and has been since Wednesday... so it's likely she is detoxing and may have more difficulty right now.

My mom is flying in Wednesday to stay for 2-weeks for my Birthday Present (planned for over 6-months) So, that will be so wonderful for ME!