[JaimeKurp]

I am new to this, so I'm not sure what to say or what to do. I was looking on the web to find some info on how to deal with a m/c, because I just had one about a month ago. I'm not dealing with it very well. And my husband isn't sure what to do for me.
This is what happened. We found out that I was pregnant on Jan. 16th (home test) and the doc's confirmed it on the 18th. (Blood test). They told me they didn't need to see me until the 11the of Feb. So my hubby and I were floored to know we were going to have another child (we have 2 wonderful children, a boy 5 and a girl 2, no problems getting pregnant or after), but we were happy. It wasn't and still isn't the best time for us to be having another baby, but we figured it was a sign to get our crap together and make things work. So I went to my check up, I told them my last period was the 28th of Nov. So they figured it would put me at 10wks. I was shocked, because I didn't think I was that far along (but I was starting to get a tummy, so I figured it was right). They went to listen to the heart beat, but couldn't find it. She told me that maybe they have the dates wrong and they wanted to do an ultra sound to make sure the dates were right. So the next day (Feb. 12th) I went back to the doctor's and had an ultra sound. Well the moment they started we knew that something was wrong, there wasn't a baby, but a mass of cells. They told us the baby didn't develop into anything but cells. So I had to have a D&C on the 14th (what I nice way to spend Valentine's Day). So after the D&C, they told me I had what they call a Molar Pregnancy. So now because of that they have to watch my hormone levels, so I have to get blood work done once a week until my levels are zero, and then they will check them for 6 months to make sure they stay at zero. We are not to get pregnant until this is all over. My levels haven't reached zero yet, so I have been a mess. There are some other person issues in my life also that I know aren't helping me. But I just feel like it was my fault some how and I am not sure how to deal with it all.
So if someone has some advice, I would greatly except it. Right now I feel I need all the help I can get.
Thanks, JK