Nic,
I have just adopted a beautiful little boy and have done tons of research into international adoptions. I think the first thing you need to do is decide whether or not you would like your baby adopted by an Irish family or to do an international adoption. If you decided to do international, let me know I will be happy to send you the research and reviews of international agencies I have.
I'm sorry that you don't think your family will support your decision. I think you should look into finding a therapist in your area where you can go to talk through your decision without any worry about being judged or made to feel bad about your decision.
I want you to know that we had 1 failed match before we got our son, and when the birth mother changed her mind, it hurt, but we knew she was doing what was best for her and her child. It's a decision only you can make for yourself, but I'm here if you need someone to talk to. Email me if you want to
jd1331@inbox.com