[wanna be a young mother]

Today has been the worst day of my life. My grandmother has been sick for sometime now but doing well. Earlier this week she was taken to the ER for breathing problems. She has been on oxygen for 18 years now. She wasnt doing so well and the Dr. said there wasnt much more they could do. It was my Grandmothers wish to die at home. So today 9/12/2008 my Grandmother was brought home from the hospital. She was doing well and alert. She layed down for a nap and I am very sad to say passed away after only being home for an hour. She had held on until she could make it home. I am very upset. I was on my way to bring Nevy to see her since children under 12 cant go in the intensive care unit. We hadnt seen her in 2 months. I left work at 3:34pm(today was my first day). I was stuck it horrible traffic b/c of the rain. At 5:00pm (I was less than 5mins from her house) my mother called and said my Grandmother had just passed at 4:51pm. All I wanted was for my Grandmother to see Nevy one last time before she died and I feel so bad that we didnt make it in time. My whole family is shattered about this. My Grandmother has 10 children and over 70 grand and great grandchildren. Almost everyone was on there way to see her. Not one of us made it on time. My Aunt was the last to talk with her b/c she lived in her home. It has been a very long and sad day. The guilt of not getting Nevy to her in time is eating me up. I feel so bad that I didnt take her to see her sooner. Please say a prayer for my family that we get through this and please say one for my Grandmother who is now in heaven smiling down at us.