[Ganike]

I'm new to this site and I'm desperate to find help. I had the most horrific mood swing ever known to man and it cost me my relationship. I'm early in my first trimester and I found out 2 days ago that I am a month and a half pregnant. The day before I found out I was pregnant I said the most horrific things to my boyfriend. In a rage I said to him, "You push me over the edge. You make me not want to live. I'm going to hurt myself because of you. I don't want to be alive because of you." I was upset at him for not calling me the entire day, but not upset enough to even yell at him. Well, after this happened I thought about how I lost control of my emotions that horribly and how I could even say that to the man I love. He left and the next day I found out I'm pregnant. When I said those things I was pregnant and on the pill. I've never wanted to hurt myself or thought about it and I've never lost my temper in that way. Now I'm trying to convince him that it was a horrible hormonal mistake, but he is incredibly sad and hurt from the event. I'm completely lost. Are hormones really this scary???