[slygirrl]

Okay so I was putting up the tree the other day and as I'm listening to the music and stringing the lights my mind continues to wander.... About 10 months ago I sort of lost a friend (who obvoiously was not that good of one as will be evicenced by my story). I was having a lot of problems around Christmas last year and I needed a third party who was not involved to go to to vent and cry because talking to dh at that point was impossible. He was the root cause to most of our problems as it was so talking to him then was futile. I talked to this friend (and I swear on my life it was nothing more than that at any point- and dh did know I was talking to my friend) a lot and kind of got through my issues. But the friendship was always very one sided. At any rate months went by and he slowly withdrew himself from me and shut down ALL communication with me altogether. (We went through this about 9 years ago too- we've been friends that long but he did this same thing to me back then which is why we didn't talk for a very long time) I don't know what my issue is really. I mean I just had Skylar, and everything is great at home now. It's 100 percent better than it was this time last year and we have fewer issues with eachother that we can't work through (does that make sense?), so why am I feeling like I don't really have closure from this friend? Like I don't want to be friends with him anymore, especially since he just shut me out like that for no reason again, and I can accept he obviously doesn't value my friendship enough to tell me why he stopped talking to me, but how on Earth can you get closure? I could e-mail him but what purpose is it going to serve? If he responds at all he could easily overstep the issue I have. This has been eating at me for days now simply because of how close our friendship (I thought) was last year at this same time.... This is just a retarded post, but can anyone tell me how to get closure from this so I can forget him altogether now?