[Screwedup]

Just wanted to know if there is anyone out there that will not judge me but help me find myself and my problems.


I have been married 2 times, the first marriage ended due to catching my wife with my neihgbor on our 3rd anniversary and the second ended do to my wife not wanting to relocate. I was faithful to both of them and never lied about anything. Here in 2008, after and on and off relationship with this awesome woman, i have lied and cheated on her. I cheated on her 2 times and you wouldnt believe all the lies. The woman i cheated with was an ex-girlfriend, and i dont know why or what draws me back to her or made me cheat on this current girlfriend. Is all this do to what has happened to me in the past, hurting people before i am the one that gets hurt or what is going on here. I love this woman that i am currently having a relationship with and trying to save, and she wants me to get myself figured out on why i have done what i have. Can anyone help me? I am not proud of what i have done, and i would love to erase everything but i cant. I hurt this woman so badly and we want to work things out but she is afraid that i will do it again.

Thanks,
screwedup