[Adara]

I need to explain a bit. My first was a secondary cs because birth didn't succeed. The 2nd was an elective cs because I was told he has macrosomia. He was a bigger size but not the 9lbs promised. During the 2nd cs I was worrying about my son and if anything happened I'd had made him an orphan with a baby brother. Everything was kinda ok except that they had to re-open the cut because there was blood in a catheter for urine. They thought something hurt my bladder but then turned out it didn't. Later on after the cs they found the reason for the blood. Some nurse didn't put in the catheter into the right place but left it in the vagina which caused the blood to flow inside it or something. But now I have some more weeks to go until my 3rd cs and I cannot stop me from thinking the thoughts again. What if everything goes wrong and you end up dead? I talked to the doc and he said that seldomly something like excessive bleeding happens but I still am afraid. Maybe it's because my pregnancy didn't go so well in general. I have problems most of other preggy women never experience, like 15 kgs of water gain, walking problems since week 16 due to losening ligaments in the pelvis, high blood sugar for two measurements, never ending infection with coughing and some other seldomly experienced disturbancies during pregnancy. After I left my hospital of choice I was a bit relieved but fear returned. How can I get rid of the fear? It haunts me.

[Adara]

Ok, 6 more days until my delivery. After I wrote the above I felt calm for some days. Maybe it's because I have no one here to talk about it with. But now it returned and I fear the day of the cs and I also fear that labor starts before it and I fear what may happen. I cannot even say I want to be knocked out because I fear I'll never wake up, so I guess I'll have to go for the spinal I hope it's just hormones and that I calm down until Friday.

[wanttobemommy]

I think that everything should go ok. As long as you trust the person doing your CS. I am hoping that everything works out wonderfully for you. My mom had a vbac after two c sections and was ok but said she wishes she would have had the third c section

[mcmama]

I had two cs - the first a total disaster because labor did not progress and the second was a real breeze.

It helps to know what happened to you before - and why it did - and to know that this is a one time mistake. Also, if I were you, I wouldn't be knocked out - I've survived several operations (not cs) and I have that same fear!!!! It is so normal.

Have them numb you, and be awake and alert. That helps with the feeling of control over this. I found that for the second cs, my anesthesiologist was my best friend in the whole world that day. He knew what I was feeling before I felt it, because he was keeping close eye on my blood pressure and other things. So his attitude was, don't be a hero, tell me if you feel sick. That really was great for me.

You will be fine, I am sure. Let us know!!!

[Kats Playland]

I felt the same way with this past cs, but it didn't hit me til a few days before I went in. I was scared to death something was going to happen to me, the baby or both. And it just got worse as they wheeled me into the OR for the CS and the waiting I had to do in there... But it all turned out fine and I worried myself for nothing. I know you should do fine and try to stay calm. I had a spinal done and do to my nerves & adrenaline *sp?* it took it a little longer than normal to kick in on top of that they had to add extra stuff to my IV.
I wish you all the luck in the world and you're in my thoughts.

[QueenAngie]

Take a deep breath! And another one!

Relax!

90% of the things you worry about never come to pass. Isn't that how the saying goes.

As long as you have confidence in your OB and confidence in the hospital setting, everything will go smoothly. Smooth sailing!

None of us know when a car accident will occur,
when a major disaster will strike,
or any other similar deadly event.

Just have to have faith that everything will go smoothly and as planned. I am a firm believer in prayer.

Prayers for you & baby!

[Adara]

Thank you ladies. It really helps to not be alone with these thoughts. I fear to say something over here, because I don't want to scare dh or be laughed about by family members of whom none had a cs. They were born for giving birth, at least from what they tell.
I will keep all your thoughts in mind when they roll me in. you are great support.

[Adara]

Ok, to send a short update, it went well. Not only that, it was the fastest recovery ever and I needed like no pain killers, wanted to walk some hours after the cs. The surgeon was really doing a good job, removed some adhesions, too. I felt so save because there was no whispering and talking about blood loss like with the cs before. They were all relaxed, I had no vomitting during cs and no extensive drop of bp. I just wanted to let you know. So if anyone is really afraid of it, there is no way in telling that it really will turn out bad.

[QueenAngie]

Great news! So happy for you and your family!

Now, don't overdue. Take time to nap and rest.

[jen0608]

I'm new here and I read your thread. I'm so happy for you and any updates are really appreciated.