[snickerdoodles]

Well, I think that I am out this month. Which TOTALLY has shocked everyone including my RE. We had two great eggs this month and my progesterone levels were high...but obviously it didn't work. I took a test this morning like they instructed and it was neg....and I have been having the brownish stuff and cramping, which I thought was implantation bleeding.....but no such luck. Now, they are scheduling me to get an HSG this month. I am very upset and depressed about this cycle...I couldn't fight the urges this morning and cried several times at work. There must be a special place in heaven for us girls that are having such a hard time ttc! So now...I get to worry and anticipate the hsg.

[milady64]

sorry it didn't work out for you this month.

Are you doing IVF? (being you said two good eggs).

The HSG is not so bad, I had one done last month. Just a little painful. I had it done first thing in the a.m., then just hung out on the couch at home after that. I was able to drive my self home with no problem.

Good luck to you, and tons of baby dust.

[poliscmjr]

I'm so sorry about this month. Maybe there is still hope AF isn't here yet. Keep positive.

I agree about a special place in heaven!

[QueenAngie]

(((Hugs)))

Maybe next month IS your month, dear!

[snickerdoodles]

Thank you for all your encouraging words...I need all the prayers I can get....
You asked if I was doing IVF.....NO. We don't have any spermie problems or anything like that. I just have PCOS and never ovulate. But they are controlling my cycles by doing Clomid 200mg, then followed with ultrasounds to monitor the eggs and then I get an HCG injection. This past cylce was the FIRST cycle I have actually ovulated with. I had two great eggs! They were perfectly sized and everything! Then after the HCG injection I had another ultrasound and they definitely burst and released....they were gone and there was tons of free fluid. I guess his spermies just didn't break the shell! I have also thought back and maybe we didn't bd enough...but we were doing it everyday before "o" and the next couple days after. Who knows....but I hope this hsg helps!

[punkepooh]

I know how you feel, it's been a year now for us since we last conceived only to have a mc and now it feels like it will never happen again and I will be trapped in this board forever!!! I start metformin next month in addition to the clomid and if that dosn't work after 3 months we have decided to either take a break or go on with the RE. But like someone else said AF isn't here yet so good luck!

[snickerdoodles]

Originally Posted by punkepooh

I know how you feel, it's been a year now for us since we last conceived only to have a mc and now it feels like it will never happen again and I will be trapped in this board forever!!! I start metformin next month in addition to the clomid and if that dosn't work after 3 months we have decided to either take a break or go on with the RE. But like someone else said AF isn't here yet so good luck!

I know....it has been over a year of trying for us again. I tell you what, isn't it amazing how you can look back and realize it has been THAT LONG?! It is so depressing. I am so happy to have all of you to vent with and cry with! Do you know how many times I sit at this computer and cry?? I know you all are the same, and we are blessed to have eachother for encouragement......people I work with have no clue...my friends have no clue because they don't have my problem....it is just so depressing.
Erin, I think you should forget the break....and go on to your RE, because that is what is helping me...I am going to a specialist and so far, they are the only ones that have made me ovulate, so that is progress! Good luck sweetie!

[punkepooh]

I go back and forth on the break, on one hand I just want to try everything I can to have a baby, but on the other hand it is becoming very hard on both of us every month that goes by with a BFN, plus the hormones they have me on are making me so wacko!, I just want to be normal again, so if we go on break will woln't be "trying" per say but we aren't going to prevent it either, I did get pg on my own before so it could happen again. I am just quickly losing hope, as I really feel AF will be here any day now. I just don't know how much more of this either of us can take.

[wanttobemommy]

ladies please do not give up. I was on this board for 20 months before i got a sticky BFP. I know how frustrating it is to keep trying and have everything take so long. But the best things in life are the ones worth waiting for. just remember to enjoy the bd and not stress too much. I hope you both get your BFPS really soon

[snickerdoodles]

Thanks Kristin! I know I have read alot of your posts and you have been through alot! People like you give us hope that is for sure!
Just letting you guys know that I am 100% positive that she is showing her ugly face today. Before my shower this morning I checked and she is starting to come in full force now.