I tried committing suicide and don't know why?!
Okay... I'm in the early 20's and I've been feeling hopeless and like I have nothing going for me.
I am currently in a serious relationship with my first love and I have moved in with him to our own apartment. But lately I haven't been so happy. I don't know exactly what it is that's going on with me. I've been having really bad headaches, i've lost alot of weight, and im always hungry but when i eat, i can't. I take two bites and my stomach starts to hurt.
I went to the doctor and she said that it might be a sinus infection and gave me some pills. THEY DIDN'T work!! SO i went back and she schedule me for a CT scan and blood work. I haven't gotten my results back, but some people try to tell me, I must be depressed or have thyroid problems, or just stressing over alot.
Two days ago...I was home alone crying and crying... no reason at all. I try to ask myself why am I so sad. I've been happy and unhappy... I haven't been myself or so I've been told. I'm not like I used to be... so I don't remember much... but I ended up with a bottle of pills in my hand and a knife
I took all the pills in my hand must of been all of the pills except a couple because my headaches are so strong I think I am addicted to pills. So i took the pills and put them in my mouth and at that moment my boyfriend had walked in my house and took his hand and put it in my mouth. Took most of the pills out... but i got to swallow some... but i don't remember at what point i cut my leg. He saw blood and threw me in the shower. I tried killing myself but he saved my life but I was so upset.
What is wrong with me? What should I do? I don't understand... I haven't been able to concentrate and understand anything for a while... especially things that have to do with me. Can someone help me?!? !
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