[wanttobemommy]

I cant stand this crap. I hate not knowing what is going on. I mean if the stupid people I have dealt with so far would have listened to me then I would have already had three betas. I asked for one on friday the 23 they told me it was too early to do a beta. Then I asked for one on Sunday 25 while I was at the E.R. I had one done on Wednesday about 5 hours after I had asked for them to do one and they told me no. Now I am sitting here freaking out all day and night trying to hope and pray that my baby is ok and If these stupid medical @ssholes would have listened to the PATIENT who knows her body better than they do then we would know what was going on. My drs office is really pissing me off and I just might switch. DH likes the pricks in the office though. But he is getting upset at the lack of compassion they are showing me. Knowing my history, they should at least try to be accomidating. I mean my own Dr wouldnt talk to me today. They had no answers to my questions which I know isnt their fault they only know what they are told about the ultrasound. But according to the ultrasound there was no abnomalities noted just a smaller size. I am soo soo frustrated. I have been crying since yesterday. Its sad because yesterday I said this would be so much easier if I wasnt able to have babies because then it wouldnt hurt so much to wonder if there is something wrong and know that no one is telling you anything and that is seems like no around you cares (not you ladies Im tlaking about my family and drs and stuff) This is the first time ever Jaxon has seen me cry and I just cant stop crying the tears are just pouring down my face. I hate this. I asked my drs office to have the lab call me with the beta results and they said no.