[JeanLynn81]

I was supposed to drop Alyssa off at a family friends house for babysitting at 8am, so I can FINALLY get to sepnd some decent time with my mom. And guess what?

THE CAR ISN'T HERE!!!!!!!!!!! ACK!

My dad and brother obviously forgot my plans. My dad's brain is so fried from past drug use and my brother is just an idiot...so I guess I can't blame them. Two dead brains equal no thought process and I guess I need to realize that about those two.

If I even call up to the hospital later, and they are there...I just might flip out...and they better find somewhere else to sleep tonight! I've got a bat with their name on it, and enough frustration to use it.

Sorry...I needed to get that out. Thanks!

[Magic_Mikki]

Awww! Sorry to hear that your plans are ruined! I can't even imagine how frustrating this must be for you!

[MissyChrissy]

Ugh--how thoughtless of them.

[DivasMomma]

very thoughtless...i would be just as mad as you!

[mommy2067]

Very thoughtless indeed...I hope you were able to find another way to follow through on your plans today Jean....they better not come home for a while if they know what's good for them...(oh wait we have already established that they don't have one good brain b/w them so....)...Hang in there honey...((((HUGS))))

[angelic_ky]

MEN!!!

[KR258]

I am so sorry! 's

[QueenAngie]

(((Hugs)))
So very sorry, Jean.

Could you arrange for another day?

[JeanLynn81]

Awww gee thanks girls...for letting me vent and understanding!

Against my better judgment, I took Alyssa up there with me. She was on really good behavior (for a 2 year old). We just took a break and walked around when she got antsy in the room...and it worked out fine. Grandma had some cookies for her. I joked with my mom that even when she is near death, she STILL has ways to spoil her granddaughter! We are trying to brighten up her day as much as possible. My friend thinks that even after she passes, she'll still find a way to spoil her. I can picture it now. I'm sitting here on the computer, and suddenly a piece of candy floats across the room, unwraps, and lands in Alyssa's mouth...Yup. Its possible. I don't give Alyssa candy, EVER...and my mom insists she'll make sure she gets it.

So...my mom is feeling much better since they gave her zanax (sp?). It has helped her calm down, and her breathing is getting better. She said she feels better. BUT the doctors aren't sure she has much of a chance for a complete recovery. Hospice keeps getting brought up...ALOT. And my mother really wants to do it if she isn't going to get much better. But we'll see. She was ready to give up the other day. But people with breathing problems get high anxiety, so I asked for the doc to prescribe her something, and am SO GLAD he did. It has made a big difference. Its helping her to think better, and relax.

And she was so happy to see Alyssa...and Alyssa was SO EXCITED to see her grandma. Even despite the mean nurse who told me to put her in a chair and keep her there. But thats more of a vent, and I'm actually in a better mood today...so..

Hope everyone is having a lovely day. (No I didn't take a zanax )

[mommy2067]

Glad that it all worked out in the end..it was very nice that your mom and Alyssa got to spend some time together...I am also happy to hear that your mom is more relaxed and breathing easier too...the panicking doesn't help so once that can be controlled it helps regulate the ability to breathe....You sound a lot better in your post today too!! There will be good days and bad and we are here with you every step of the way...