[EryJonJeremiah]

Well I decided to write exactly what happened to my baby... It was Halloween of 07' 3:00am... I started to feel really bad pains in my back... Sharp pains the didn't go away... I took a bath and all to see if they would but they didn't... In the afternoon I still had them but not as bad... I called my mother telling her about them... That same day I had an appt with my doctor to check me... So we decided to call them and let them know... One of the receptionist told my mother that I should go to the hospital since I was close to my 36 weeks... I was 33 weeks... So we did... They admitted me and put all that stuff on me to monitor the baby... They saw that I was getting contractions back to back and they wanted them to stop... LiL did they come to realize that it was better for me to have them...

So they did stop them after a while... The next thing one of the nurse's came to the room and realized my daughters heart rate wasn't normal at all... It was not active the way it should be... So they wanted to do an ultrasound... They did it and they didn't want to tell me what was wrong until they spoke to my doctor... When they called him they told him everything that was wrong and he told me... I really didn't understand it so I put my mother on and she spoke... My daughter was really sick... I don't know how she became so sick it was all a shock to me... It came out of nowhere.... I cried asking my mother why its happening to me... I wouldn't want it to happen to no one at all... She had CARDIOMEGALY which is an enlarged heart... Lord only knew how long and how much that would have been... She would have needed a heart transplant...
But it hurt me so much because I do anything for my kids... I went home and told Johnny what was going on... The next day which was Nov 1, 2007, everything started all over... I was getting the contractions again... I was again in the hospital for them... They did another ultrasound and still the same... Inside I was hoping it was a mistake but no it was really happening... If she would have stayed inside of me full term she would have passed away as well... At like 7:00pm the doctor finally came and they decided to do an emergency c section... So on my way to the OR I was going... The epidural didn't work for me so they had to put me to sleep.... I wasn't awake to see my daughter coming into this world, she came into this world at 7:25pm Nov 1, 2007... I really never saw my baby alive until the last few minutes of her breath... They came to me and told me that she was leaving, they couldn't do anything about it...

They were going to send her to another hospital but while they were going to do that she was already passing on so they didn't want to... They asked me if we wanted to see her before anything so we did... It was me, my mother, Johnny and Johnny's mother... While we going into the room they were giving her breaths to see if she could stay here but no, my baby girl couldn't take the pain no more... So at 11:23pm Nov 1, 2007pm my daughter was gone... My daughter couldn't fight the pain no more that she was going through... I couldn't cry when I was holding my baby, I think I was more in shock... It didn't really hit me... Until the day I buried her...

Thats when I realize I will never see her again... As much as it does kill me inside to say that I know she is in a better place I would have wanted her here with us... But God had other plans for my Angel... What plans I will never know... But someday I will meet her again, we all will... I just wanted to THANK everyone that has been there for us throughout everything... We all appreciated it very much... R.I.P. Janiah Zenaida Soto WE LOVE AND MISS YOU!