[KR258]

It's been 10 months and 6 days. I feel sad because I feel like I am the only one in the world who loves that little boy. I know that isn't true but I can't seem to convince my feelings. I know that I shouldn't expect other people to love him as much as I do or to think about him as often as I do but it hurts to be the only one feeling it so strongly. My dh says it's something I need to "overcome" as if it's some sort of illness....I just want everyone to know him like I did...I know it sounds weird because he was alive for such a short time but I swear you could tell what a sweet little person he was. He would have been something real special if he could have lived for a little longer. I just wish they knew what he meant to me and I wish he meant the same to them. I don't want to be alone in this. No one else even met him except the nurses and the doctor (who I do not speak to)
I hope I never lose another baby but if it does ever happen again I will be doing things so differently. I will make sure my husband and daughter are there and will call my family to come down to see the baby before they take the baby away. I will fight harder for them to DO something before it's too late. I will hold the baby longer, wash the baby myself, take more pictures, talk more to the baby...do something more. I feel so helpless sometimes.