[JustAMom60]

In October of 2004 my husband passed away from complications following a heart attack. During the 18 months that followed his death my 29 year old daughter became more and more angry. It got to the point that she was so angry that she became verbally abusive to me and finally she got angry enough with me one evening that she finally moved out of my home and is now living with her long time boyfriend and his father. The straw that broke the camel's back was when I mentioned to my daughter that I had decided to look for a male companion to spend social time with -- movies, dinner and such. I did explain to her that I had no intention of replacing her father and that I felt it probably wasn't ever possible. I also explained to her that I was very lonely and felt it was time to seek companionship. Upon hearing this my daughter became enraged with me, told me that I was "inappropriate" and she stormed off. That was a year ago and I have not heard from her or seen her since. Needless to say, my heart has been broken. I have tried on several occasions to get her to respond to me but it is futile. I personally feel that seeking companionship after the loss of my husband was not out of line or inappropriate and I do also realize that my daughter may not be in the same "place" emotionally as me since her father passed away. I feel that I do not deserve this emotionally abusive treatment. My daughter could have just told me that she wasn't ready to hear this from me and that would have been fine. My last communication with her was via e-mail and she told me that her therapist told her that she was to have no contact with me. I have been in therapy myself and know for a fact that therapists do not encourage a "no contact" approach unless there is a possibility of physical abuse which isn't the case here. Anyway, the bottom line here is that not only have I had to endure the loss of my husband of thirty years but now I grieve the loss of my daughter. I'd appreciate any thoughts, insight, input or questions.