[maryavan]

So how is everyone doing after the holidays? We made it through here, but mainly b/c we took off out of town. We hadn't been able to take a vacation this year between m/c #2 and the whole nightmare of my mom moving but cleaning out her house. DH had a ton of days he had to take before the end of the year. So we decided to go to South Carolina to visit his grandmother who moved there in Sept. We left on Fri when school let out. We spent 3 nights w/ Great grandma. Then Christmas Eve day we drove out to Myrtle Beach to spend 3 nights at a beach resort. Christmas was very calm and relaxed. We fixed food in our suite. We had a just a few small toys in a stocking for ds. We decorated 2 tiny $1 trees. We went swimming and to the beach. Then back to Great grandma's for one more night. We all got terrible colds and a bit of pink eye, but it was nice to get away.

My mom was pretty upset we left. I never signed anything that said I had to be here for all major holidays while my brother comes home once every 6 years. DH HAD to take the days when he did. Mom was a major reason we didn't get a vacation, and a big reason we NEEDed a vacation.

While we were gone, AF showed up. Only 20 days after the last day of m/c spotting. I really was hoping to skip a period! I''d bled for 50 days w/ the m/c, I really wanted more of a blood free break. However, I know that it is great for TTC that my period came right back, esp w/ PCOS. We were lucky that there was a LABCORP location near where we were that was open in the morning on 12/24 so I could get my RE's ordered bw that had to be done on somewhere between cycle days 2-4.

DS helped open up lines of communication w/ GG Miller and dh's aunt about the miscarriages. Actually they both now know more about what is going on w/ us than my inlaws do. Mainly b/c they asked us questions. It was really cool. DS was showing off his baby doll to GGM. She was hopeful that maybe we were pregnant. I had told her in Sept about m/c #2, but we hadn't said anything about #1 and #3. When she asked, I just told her the truth: We just had another m/c, making it 3 in 11months. DS asked, begged, for the doll set seemingly as a way for him to cope with the losses. DS also was talking about his doll w/ at the aunt's house, which might of made Aunt J curious (ds is named after her gay brother). Aunt J was curious about the lab work that I had to get on Christmas eve day before we left town. She wanted to know why we were referred to the RE. "Well, its pretty standard after 3 miscarriages." So she was asked all kind of questions. We told them about my upcoming HSG and what the RE says. It was so different than dh's family. They just act like nothing's happened.

I go in for my HSG tomorrow morning. I went to dentist Tues, taking ds today to dentist, then tomorrow HSC. What a fun week, huh? Dh hasn't made his appt. for his special test or deposit He needs to get going b/c we see the RE later this month. Compared to all the things I'm going through, his part sounds like more fun! DH has been the one that REALLY REALLY wants another child. I asked him this week, before I go through this hsg, was he absolutely sure he still wants another. Yup, he still does. So off I go tomorrow....

[poliscmjr]

What a holiday season you had. I'm glad you spent it with family who wanted to understand what you were going through. It's nice to spend it that way.

I hope tomorrow goes really well for you.

Remember we are all here for you!

[KR258]

I had a few tough days (that were actually not on the holidays themselves) I think it is the combination of not having Keanu here for Christmas and then starting a new year...2007 was his year and it felt weird to move on to a new year. I didn't really want to but here I am! The other thing that's bugging me is the lack of AF. I feel like I've been waiting forever! My ob/gyn doesn't want to see me till the end of this month though (if af hasn't arrived by then) It's been a bit stressful waiting for myself to get back to normal.