[For little Elza]

I thought it would be cool if we shared messages to our angels. I am sure the reason we are all here is to remember them. So, I will start and I hope some of you reading will feel free to share a message today too.

Elza,

Thinking of you this morning, I am at least and hour early for work. I am thinking of you today, and everyday. I drove past the daycare that I checked out for you before you were born, right by my work. I wish I could have gone through the anxiety and heartbreak of having to drop you off once and awhile. Your daddy is only going to school right now though, and I doubt if you would have had to go today. Your sister sleeps with your picture every night and we gaze upon your picture each day. Time has gone by, but we still miss and wonder about what you would have been doing each day. I hope my grandmother and uncle are holding you and that you are getting to know all the good friends I have lost when they too were young. Just know that mommy misses you and holds you in her heart each day. With love, darling. Mommy

[snowflake43]

thnak you for starting this !!!! Nathaniel, The day that we would have been able to hold you is very near, there has not been a day that goes by that Mommy & Daddy have not thought of you or missed you terribly. Your brothers & sisters talk about you often & miss you very much. also your nieces. your nephew will be born in two days, i know as he grows i will be looking for you , as you were supposed to be born around the same time as him. Your sister has asked if he can carry your name. We told her yes , so even though you had to go to heaven so soon, your name will be carried on through your new nephew , You are official consider to be Kentrell J'mes Nathaniel' s gaurdian angel. Though you are in heaven know that you are forever in our minds & our hearts our sweet Baby Angel, Love Mommy, Daddy, Brothers & sisters

[For little Elza]

To my little Elza,

Thinking of you very much each day. Today you would have been 7 months old. Its easy to forever hold you in my heart, but so hard not to hold you here. You have made me truly appreciate how precious life is. A student of mine recently lost a little girl. Please watch out for this little one out on God's great playground. Much love. Mommy

[rakkoon]

You will always be in my heart and my mind till the day I see you again.
Baby #1...I have the U/S image of you in my mind constantly. I remember how you wiggled around with your little heart beating so fast, you were only 6 weeks old. You must have been the size of a peanut but you seemed so strong. I could already imagine you in my arms, I wanted so much to hold you. My arms ache almost everyday for you. I love you so much. The day I saw that your little heart had stopped beating, I wanted so much to hold you, in hopes that you would come back to me.
I don't want you to ever believe that I forgot you. You wil always be my little angel.
BABY #2.....Hello my little angel. I too remember you right next to your brother Josiah. The moment I saw you in the U/S image I knew you were weak. You hardly moved but I hoped and prayed you would get stronger. Only to find out 7 weeks later you had gone without a trace. When I look at Josiah I wonder what you must have looked like. I wonder if you two would grow up to be really close. Sometimes I wonder if I could have done anything different so you could have lived. I sometimes blame myself b/c I was so afraid of having twins, I didn't know if I could do it. Did you feel my fear? Did you leave b/c you thought I didn't want you? I love you, I never wanted you to leave. To have you both growing inside of me was such a miracle to me. I will see you again, I love you dearly. Stay close to your other sibling.

[wanttobemommy]

To Jereth

You would have been five this year. Each and every day I think about taking you to kindergarten. I wonder if you would have liked school. I wish each and every day that you were here with mommy. I know that you are here in my heart. But just once I wish I could have held you in my hands. I remeber seeing you move for the first time. I was scared because at that moment you were really real. I couldnt believe that I had this precious baby in my tummy. Mommy loves you and misses you so much.

To Hayden

You were in my life for such a short while. I never got to see your little heart beating. I feel as if I failed you. I never realised just how precious you were. Your daddy loves you and misses you too. We wish that you were here with us. But I know that your big brother is up there with you holding you hand. I love you both bery much.
Love Always your mommy

[Brocks mother]

My Little Man,
Monday marked 6 weeks since you left my body. When you were born, you were already a precious little angel. Mommy misses you so much...It was my heartbreaking cries that filled the hospital room that day when there should have been joy in heart hearing you cry for the first time. Your mommy is going to make it through this and then we'll get the chance to finally play together. Not a minute in the day goes by that my heart doesn't break all over again thinking of you...I had so many plans for you and us but that was all taken away from me and it's not fair. But one day I'll see the bigger picture and I'll have you in my arms and everything will be the way it should have been....I love you Brock Austin and miss you with all my heart and soul...Mommy

[For little Elza]

Little Elza,

Today, I was holding my own hands, just so. I looked down on them and found them empty. A great wave of missing you came from nowhere and I remembered holding your tiny little head in my hands when you were already gone. I wanted to see you grow this far and be sitting up well and crawling by now, or at least here with me. But you are there with God. It is with all of my heart today that I tell you somehow that I love you. You were real to me, to your father, and to your entire family. Tiny little girl, so small, so missed.

Mommy

[wanttobemommy]

To my beautiful baby boys

I was sitting here today and thinking how wonderful it would be to be pregnant again. I know that if and when it happens that it will never replace the love I have for the two of you. Mommy misses you oh so very much and your daddy misses you too. I know Jereth that Derek isnt your biological father but I want you to know that he loves you just as much as he loves Hayden. We both know that we have two precious little boys in heaven. Jereth in one way loosing Hayden was a good thing for you baby boy. Now you can take care of your brother for mommy and make sure that he is safe and having fun. Whenever it rains or snows I think of you two up there playing in the clouds. I know that you two are safe but it hurts my heart so much not having you here with me. Jereth you know that if I do get pregnant this cycle you could possibly be sharing your birthday with a little brother or sister. It kind of scares mommy to think about it. But I need both of you to watch over mommy now and when I do get pregnant you need to guide me to make the right decisions. I love you both so much. Hayden you are one of the most precious gifts I could ever recieve you restored my hope. After loosing your brother I was so sure I would never again feel the wonders of having a baby growing inside me. Hayden you are my hope and Jereth you are my strength. I love you both so much and pray that you will help me do the right things. I will see you tonight in my dreams
Love Always
Your Mommy

Dear Kyjuan-

Well there really isn't a day that goes by where I do not think about you,even though you were only in my body for 2 months of pregnancy I still bonded with you & had plans for you..I often think about what you would have been like if you were born & I know you would have been a great Son..I know you would be turning 5 years old on 8-21-06 & I just wish you could be here to see your Mom,half brother,Isaiah & half Sister,Savannah,but I know you are always looking down on your Mommy..I hope you hear me when I say goodnite & I love you,I say it every night,I hope you can hear me Baby Boy...

[For little Elza]

Little Elza,

You have been so much apart of this pregnancy. You are still so much your own child because we knew you, for such a short, short time, we knew you and how we thought you might be. I think of all your quick punches and kicks and remember how much I said you would be our soccar star. When you came out, and you looked so tired and yet so alive, we came to finally meet you. I know in my heart you were there too.

I hope you do not find any jealousy in your heart for this new baby brother or sister (we are thinking sister). Because there is nothing about this child that could replace anything we feel about you. Every day we think of you.

For me, at the oddest time of today I thought about losing you. About how much we understand now what we did not know then when you died. How much I would pay to know what I know in hindsight to have been able to prevent your demise then! But I thought about being in labor with you and how much it hurt, how I didn't know how close I was to having you. I thought of you coming into the world with only your father and me in the room momentarily and how much it represented our world right then and there, and how much it would change us all!

You have changed us. You have brought things into our lives that did not exist before you. You brought learning and humility and will hopefully bring justice, because you shouldn't have died for nothing. When we cry for you now, it is not because we want more from you than what a tiny baby can do, we just wanted to hold you a little longer, and get to be with you a little bit more. We love you so much, and since you are in heaven, I am sure you know!