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When I was married, I rarely had to give much thought to money; there always seemed to be more than enough.

Since I've been widowed -- which is almost a decade now -- I'm still not used to having to think constantly about making money, saving money, spending money, budgeting, watching my expenses, etc., etc., etc.!

I suppose I could give up my current "dream" job: writing and editing from home. On the one hand, I want to pursue this path; but on the other hand, I also have no choice but to keep all the other single-parent plates (i.e., responsibilities) spinning in the air.

Maybe, deep down, I'm still feeling a little angry or resentful that I was thrust into this single-parenting role against my will, without any warning (my husband died young and suddenly).

To make a long story short, I'm not happy that money is tight, but I think that I need to live with this feeling for awhile. Between my dream job and bigger bucks, I've chosen my dream job; I've made my choice, so I guess I have to get used to it.

Do you have issues like this related to money? If you do, how do you handle them?

Thanks!