[AuntLissE3]

I started last night...didn't even get the "what if it's not" spotting..just went straight into full blown "I'm here, like it or lump it." AF'ness.

I'm just about to the point where I never thought I'd be. I am tired of trying, tired of getting my hopes up each month, only to have them dashed and stomped into the mud when AF rears her ugly head. I think I'm about done putting my body thru everything every month. All of the bloodwork, all of the pills, all of the doctor's visits, and the emotional roller coaster has taken it's final toll on me. DH is super supportive, and I've not told him how I'm feeling, because I don't feel like putting it into words yet.

I've been looking into adoption informatoin, and DH and I have both talked about "what if", and so I know he's open to adoption. It's a long weekend, and I'm not going to make any final decision without talking to him first, and the doctor next. Doc said he's certain he can help us to get pregnant, but I'm tired of the let down month after month.

Did any of you ladies ever get to this point, and more importantly, how did you make it back to being excited about ttc'ing again? After 2 and 1/2 years (and I know some of you have been ttc for longer than that), I just feel like I've finally gotten to the point of passive dejection.

Okay..vent over..had to put it into words and put it out there to see what you ladies think so I can get it figured out how I'm going to broach the subject with DH.

[DK615617]

Don't give up! I know a lot of people that took a long time to get their bfp, but eventually got it. Hang in there!!!!
Sometimes taking a month or two off helps.....
but I wouldn't give up

[angelstarsmum]

I agree, take a break hun, then you can return to ttc with more energy and a clear mind, GL in your decision,.x

[quagmire8]

i have felt the same way many times on our journey TTC. i break helps. another thing that helps is reading positive personal stories of people having hardships TTC, and getting their BFP. it is good to hear some hope-inspiring stories. sorry to hear about AF. i know it is hard.

[Kats Playland]

:bighug
I agree with the ladies... Time off helps, and if you have the extra time/money try to get away one weekend. Best of luck, you're in my thoughts.