[mrnjohnson]

Overgrown Garden

What I learned from the hole in my shoe

It’s a new day and I’m still pulling the weeds from my garden. Turning over the soil as I go in hopes Mother Earth will allow something beautiful to grow. It’s not an easy task to rid your life of the weeds that have become overgrown. It may even take a life time to uproot them all, just to start back at front of the garden to start the process all over again. I’m truly sorry for all my unkind actions and words in life. I know that a garden free of weeds is an impossible dream.

For many years trying to make peace with my beloved, I have only done and said what she has wanted to here never looking down to see the hole in my shoe. You see like any other problem it starts small. I don’t remember when the hole started but I know it was there. Maybe it would have been easier to mend my shoe but I left it to decay, fester and become much larger.

Can we pull the weeds from our garden without mending our shoe? As I continued in the garden going full steaming feeling really good with all the weeds I have uprooted my foot started to peek through the hole in my shoe. Still working furiously pulling the weeds and turning over the soil I struck my exposed foot! It was painful, but I learned another profound lesson.

The hole in my shoe can be compared to the pain and hurt I have been hiding inside my mind and soul. I have done nothing to try and repair what I was hiding. Just like the hole in my shoe the weight on my soul had become too large. Can we work pull the weeds before we mend the shoe?

We can surly think the weeds can be uprooted with and exposed foot peeking through a shoe but how can we truly resolve any problem without first looking into our own soul and having peace. Ion the past I tired to rid the garden of those bitter, hatful, painful weeds and never realized that I needed to mend my shoe.

I believe that I started to mend my shoe about a year ago. I have started to put my soul at ease. Please don’t misunderstand me; I have a long way to go before my soul will be repaired. It will take much repentance and asking for forgiveness. I truly think that if I had not started to mend my soul that when I finally realized that my marriage may be over just a few days ago. I would not have had the peace of mind to forgive her for the pain she inflected on me.

I have said it before, I do not know what the future will hold for my marriage and it will take a long time to repair. There will be days and nights filled with pain. I also know that there will be days and nights have happiness and joy. To my wife: I love more then I can ever express and I’m sorry for neglecting the garden and never mending my shoe.

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[mrnjohnson]

This is far from copy written marital and was written by me while I have been dealing with very tough times in my marriage. I’ll respect if you choose to delete my post, but again it is not from a book or any article and has never been published outside of my heart.

[mcmama]

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And I personally love the metaphor. Although, me, I would just buy new shoes or find another old pair to wear out when gardening.

Marriage takes work - patience, tending, etc. And keeping yourself together as well, in order to be part of a well functioning team!

May your love bloom someday!