[redpyro]

It's not fair. My mom is a nurse who works the evening shift 3-11 pm. My dad is an electrician who works morning 6 am -5 pm. And i'm stuck taking care of my little brother who is now 7 years old. I make sure he does he homework, teach him, feed him, bathe him, change his clothes, everything! Like he's my own son. My parents say they know that i'm responsible, and I grew up to be one. But now they're putting their responsibilities as a parent on me! I stayed away from sex for one reason, no children. I dont want one, i'm not ready for one, i'm 20 years old!! If my parents had the same jobs, and the same hours when I was growing up, why cant they do the same thing for him. I know I should be grateful for my parents in every way possible and the least I could do is take care of my own brother, but honestly... I cant even live my own life. I cant even concentrate on college. I cant even go out with friends. I cant even watch tv without having to hear my little brother complaining to me! And I can't even tell all this to my parents. I can't tell them how I feel...because my older sister has broked my parents hearts. She didnt finish college, got married, and moved out of the house during the age of 21. I'm just saying, this is a lot of burden on my shoulders. I just want to rant, to cry, to tell people i'm hurting! I can't even tell how I feel to my boyfriend because he doesn't understand. I don't know. I just wanted to be heard. Just wanted to share how I feel....maybe, I dont know, hear that someone else has the same experience? No...I wouldn't want anybody else to go through this, it's terrible. No, not terrible, i'm just upset right now, so that's causing my negative thinking. I should be grateful for my little brother...I should...I should...