[2girls]

Ugh, I just feel so horrible about myself today, I mean so fat and gross.
Let's rewind to 2006 when I went on a serious health kick, and lost nearly 60 lbs, with diet and exercise. I was at my lowest weight and smallest size ever. I felt so good physically, emotionally.
Fast forward to now 8 weeks postpartum, I just want to be that person again.
I am breastfeeding, so I can't do anything drastic......but I have been doing Weight Watchers and I am losing weight......so I should just give myself some credit for that.
But with 3 kids and a part time job (that just got to be more than part time hours) and nursing, I just can't find the time to get back into my workout routine. I can't look at myself in the mirror anymore...it just grosses me out, I cringe when DH touches me cuz I don't want him to 'feel' all of the fat. This morning when he put him arm around me in bed, I just started to cry about it.....then he wants to know why I'm crying.....and I can't tell him cuz he'll just think I'm crazy.
Maybe it's just my hormones, I don't know. Now I'm just rambling, and this is going no where but it feels good to get my thoughts written down.
Thanks for listening to me.