[bamber]

I am a student, 2nd year of a 5 year program. I am going to school for accounting planning to get a MAcc by 2011....and I am experiencing extreme unrest in my situation.
I am in a long term relationship, but not engaged or married. I have recently moved in with my boyfriend, and I believe that is part of the reason I feel the way I do. I guess I should just come out and say it, I want a baby. I want a baby so badly right now, I can't explain it and I don't know why.
My SO's sister just had a baby a week and a half ago. I was also 'late' that month (just days after the baby was born) and I wished so badly that I was pregnant. I know that having a baby would not be great for me at all in my current situation, both relationship wise and financially as well as with my school, but I just don't know how to deal with these feelings. I have not brought up how badly I want a family with my BF because he is scared to get married (although we have talked about it in the future) and he doesn't want kids for a long time. We have talked about the possibility of in case I got pregnant, and he has told me that he would not mind it even though he wants to wait. I don't plan on getting pregnant right now, I just want to talk about it with someone.