[allybama]

Accountability or something like that...

Monday June 11, 2007

Weight am - 94.4 lbs
Breakfast - individual pack of Cheerios (100 cals)
Lunch - fat free vanilla yoghurt (50 cals) and 3 nachos, plain (purged the nachos)
Supper - salad, salsa dressing (120 cals)
Total Cals in - 270 cals
Weight pm - 94.7 lbs
Exercise - 75 mins elliptical, 40 min walk with Kels and Lindy, 20 mins crunches, 30 mins with my new step band, 15 mins dancing with Kels and Lindy = 180 mins

Not a terrible day all told...need to skip the purging tomorrow though...

[allybama]

Tuesday June 12

Weight am - 94.1 lbs
Breakfast - Cheerios (80 cals)
Lunch - fat free raspberry yoghurt (50 cals)
Supper - chef salad without the meat or cheese, french dressing (210 cals)
Total cals in - 340 cals
Weight pm - 94.6 lbs
Exercise - 20 mins crunches this morning, 30 mins walk with Lindy and Kelsey, 45 mins elliptical

[twinzplus3]

Ally. . .You sound like you are really trying to reach out. You also sound like you are not really healthy and could use some help. We are here to support you. . .what are your goals towards a healthy attitude and lifestyle?

[mollymae]

Ally living off that amount of calories isn't healthy. You have 4 wonderful children who need you to be healthy and need to see how to have a healthy relationship with food. You must look after yourself. Please please speak to someone.

[MiaCamille]

You need to increase your calorie intake that's wayyyyy to low, you're making yourself ill be eating that way, your children need a healthy energenic mommy. Take good care of you please....

[MJ7]

My trainer told me a minimum of calories I needed to take in and that people who don't take in their minimum calories often gain weight because their body starves and stores everything. Not taking enough food and nutrients in is not a great way to be thin. Taking in your appropriate range calories, eating well balanced meals and excersizing will not just help you keep a healthy great figure but will make you feel good and energized too!

[mama2riley]

Hiya Ally! Nice to see you posting again. How are things going for you? Do you feel like you are making any progress lately hun or are you struggling? I'm here if you need to talk.

[Alejandros Mommy]

Hello Ally....when I was younger I fell into depression. I had found out I was just PG..my Fiance left me and I really didn't care about myself at all. I felt like disappearing and that the only thing I could control was the things I ate...I was 85lbs and 4mnths PG. I strongly urge to to talk to someone...anyone. I know what it is like to hate your body and try to control it by food. You really need to talk and open up to someone. Can you seek counciling? You don't have to talk to your family just yet but I encourage you to seek out some help. HugZ to you...we're here if you ever need to talk.

[QueenAngie]

Have you been to see your doctor this week?

It seems that a thorough check-up is in order. Your baby is a year old now and time for the ob/gyne visit at least.

Sending you hugs!

[allybama]

twinzplus3 - my goals are simple...I want to live to see my children grow up and I want to do it happily. I am not healthy yet, but I am getting there. These two days are a vaaaast improvement over what I had been. I used to go days on end without a single calorie in. I have gained almost 15 lbs from my lowest weight.

Mollymae - I see a nutritionist, a psychiatrist and my family doctor for a weekly weigh in. They are really helping.

Miacamille - I am trying. Today I hit 340 cals, which is 340 more than I used to eat daily. It's 70 more than I ate yesterday, and I am hoping that it is only going to go higher tomorrow as well.

MJ7 - you sound exactly like my dietitian!! .

Melissa - It's nice to be posting again...I totally missed it! I am a little surprised at how many people have visited me here considering how sporadic I have been with my posting here. Things are going pretty well - my daughters and husband type person (lol) have moved back in with me and that makes me very happy. I am making some measure of progress for sure...I am 15 lbs over my low weight and haven't lost any real measure of weight in a long time. Struggling a little tiny bit, well okay a little more than a tiny bit, but still feeling optimistic that I can and will overcome.

Lessly - Thanks Lessly...thanks for sharing your experience with me. I am seeing a psychiatrist though. I don't particularly like her, but she seems pretty smart. She seems very dead set that the whole eating issues are because of the loss of my daughter and seems to think she can help me "work it out" as she says.

Angie - I see my family doctor every Wednesday for my standing appointment and weigh in. My health is surprisingly not too bad, considering my BMI is 13.6. My family doctor is very thorough and leaves no stone unturned, which sometimes can be annoying, but longterm is a good thing.