[babydawn]

I think that I get seperation anxiety when my kids are away from me. Anytime they leave the house, I worry that they won't come home, that they will die in a car crash or something, even if it is with my husband. He told me once when I was voicing my concerns "They are my kids too, I love them just as much as you do." Good point hubby.

School is starting on Monday and my kids really want to ride their bikes or walk like most of the other kids in my neighborhood. I just don't want to let them, because I am afraid that they will be abducted. It doesn't matter to me that I have checked the local sex offender registry and there are none on their route to school, or that there are probably 20 other kids from our neighborhood that walk everyday, I still panic.

A few months ago my husband and I left our 3 oldest kids with his mother for the first time for longer than one night while we went back east to see his grandma and grandpa. I was sick. What if, what if, what if, and then it also included what if I die on the plane, my kids need a mom, and not just any mom, they need ME! My husband has planned an off-roading/camping trip for he and I to go on with some friends...no kids allowed. That means I will have to leave my 8 month old baby as well. Now I am just freaked out about that. It is only for 48 hours, but the same thoughts go through my head...what if my baby is really sad because I am not there, what if we get attacked by mountain lions....(stupid, but it goes through my mind), what if we roll off of a cliff, (also stupid, my husband would never put me in harms way). I should say that once I made it back east, I was fine, but my baby was with me then.

Has anyone experienced problems like these? I just don't know what to do. I am always worrying about the members of my immediate family and their well being. Is this normal? Any thoughts or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.