[Nitwit]

OMG! I have been having the most crzy feeling! I feel like I'm unprepared! My ticker is off, but I'm 22weeks 3days and I feel like I haven't got anything ready for this baby! I only have three outfits and NOTHING ELSE! My mom is planning my baby shower in November, which is like 2 months away! I don't really have the money to go out and buy anything and I don't really want to. I don't know what I'm going to be getting! On top of that my MIL is telling me NOT to get a basinett, that I don't need it, and NOT to get the travel system thing they got out! My dh has a child from a previous relationship and all I keep hearing is that "I've done this before," or "We don't need that." WE DON'T NEED ANYTHING!!! I DO!!!! If someone gets it for me, I'm keeping it! AND I WILL HAVE A BASINETT AND I WILL HAVE MY TRAVEL SYSYEM!!!! My dh and I live with my M&FIL along with my SD. He's telling me that he's not taking anything out of the room and that we'll find somewhere to PUT Cooper when he comes! I'm so unbelieveably angry right now! We have a 2nd computer in our room that NOONE uses, a desk with junk all over it that NOONE uses, and a filing cabinet that hasn't been opened in about a year! If all of that stuff was taken out of this room and put in our storage unit I could fit Cooper's crib and a dresser in here! It'd be like he'd have his own freakin room until we move! It's so freakin nerve racking! And today my MIL really got me! I want to breastfeed and when Cooper is born I don't want him to have a bottle or a pacifer! I want him in the room with me so I can breastfeed him. She said, "Some women CAN'T breastfeed. And they usually give them water in the hospital anyway. So he's going to have a bottle in the first 24 hours." WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ???????????????????????????????? Then she proceeded to tell me that I don't eat for crap and that I'm way to unhealthy to even think about breastfeeding, I should just stock up on formula!!!! My doctor thinks I'm healthy! Okay so I have a UTI! I've had a cold! THOSE ARE NORMAL! I could understand if I was on bedrest and I never ate anything at all!!! Heck if she'd stop ORDERING dinner for the family we'd all be a little more healthy!!!!