[christianmommy55750]

I should be celebrating my 8 week mark today. Instead, my heart is broken. I lost my baby yesterday. I'm going to my doctor's office in an hour for another hormone level test and I just don't want to be there. I want to stay home, snuggle up in bed, and watch endless hours of mindless television. But, with 2 little ones at home, that's not really an option anyway.

I just don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I want to lose myself in my everyday activities but I can't find the energy to do any of them. I feel robbed and I'm so sad. We were thrilled to get a BFP after only 2 months of TTC because our boys took so much longer. We told everyone. Now, we have to untell them.

[KR258]

I am so sorry 's
I lost my second at 21 weeks. If you ever want to talk you can pm me.

[quagmire8]

so so sorry.....thats so hard.

[poliscmjr]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Is there anyone that can help you out to give you a few hours to yourself? And maybe that person can help tell everyone

[Momof2kids]

Take sometime for yourself...and certainly have someone else "untell them". I am sorry for your loss.

[punkytina]

Hi im so sorry for your loss, mine was in August, i was 17 weeks, i know you wont believe me, but things do seem better with time, take some time for yourself, but if thats impossible as you have young children then get them involved in the housework chores (if they old enough). Or ask your partner to take the children out, so you can have a bit of time to yourself.
why should either of you tell anyone anything your not upto it at the moment so tell people nothing until you feel your able to talk about it x
Once again im so sorry for your loss and i do know what your going through, but things do get better
my thoughts are with you and your family
Love Tina xx

[2girls]

I am so sorry for your loss. We also lost our 3rd at 11 weeks.
Your emotions will be all over the place for a while. Try and be strong for those boys of yours, they need you.
Only time will ease your pain. But it will get better.

[Sgrossmann]

I just want to let you know how great all these ladies are. Most of us have been thru what your going thru. I lost my third in the begining of march and got pregnant right away, but I still feel the loss of the one that I will never be able to hold. It's hard to call the call service and tell them your 4th pregnancy 3rd baby. If you ever want to talk feel free to PM me.

[jmmv08]

I am so sorry for your loss. We do know what you’re going through. Be strong and things will get better.

[christianmommy55750]

Thank you so much everyone. My mom is telling the family and I posted a blog on myspace to tell my friends. Our small town will know within days now. My boys are keeping me very busy so my daytimes are getting easier. It's nighttime that hurts the most when my kids and husband are in bed and I can't sleep. I'm left alone with my thoughts and that's when I just can't take it anymore.
DH wants to TTC again as soon as we can. I think I want to too. But, I feel guilty for wanting to. I don't know why, I just do.
I'm starting to think number 3 is unlucky. My family didn't say a word when we were TTC or when we got our BFP but when we lost the baby, suddenly the secret came out. A lot of women in my family (including my mom) all lost their 3rd too. And now, I've spoken with a lot of women that have lost their 3rd. It just makes no sense