[Nanny79]

My husband and I have been together since we were teenagers. We have two young children, 11 and 2. Our marriage has been through so much including our youngest sons diagnosis of autism, which like so many other events through out our marriage my husband allowed me to go through alone. He has a very difficult time showing love, or emotion. It's been one of our biggest marital issues, Esp. considering, I am so ALIVE with emotion. He never recognizes his flaws, only mine. He now says, our marriage was built upon codependence, it sounds to me like he's been talking to his mother too much (she's another situation on to herself). We love each other deeply, however a few weeks ago he told me he can't love me the way I need, and now wants a divorce. He has moved out, and seems to care more about losing weight than restoring our marriage.We have both made mistakes along the way, however I have always forgiven him, and moved on. The problem is I want to remain married and try therapy, and he won't. Every morning I wake up feeling so depressed, my children are MY ONLY motiavtion. I don't have much of a support system through my family, or anyone. I pray and cry, and feel so angry with God ,and everyone in my life. How will I get through this? Will I get through this?