[hartoog2]

Erin, I am so sorry for the way you are feeling...but from the posts you know you are not alone. I have been there too and would never think badly of you! It's a normal reaction when one wants something so bad! I hope that your BFP isn't far off! Keeping you in my prayers. Gina

[SapphirePraises]

Dear Erin,
so sorry that you are feeling very hurt right now. Truthfully it never get's easier...and this is coming from a woman who has been TTC#1 for 4 years and counting and has NEVER been pregnant...and doesn't believe in any type of treatment and testing EXCEPT God...and in true life actually had a mental meltdown because of TTC pressure and failure.

It is hard to hear people announce their pregnancies and of course we are happy for them especially when they've endured a journey like ours.

I think a lot of the times they truly don't mean us any harm by announcing it, it's just that they are soo happy that it finally happend to them and they want to tell everyone! And someday...it will be us. And true to fact there will be some dear lady who will be feeling EXACTLY what we are feeling currently.

Your feelings are normal, they come along with the TTC journey. You know something...I think that one of the reasons that we sometimes endure SO MUCH on a TTC journey, is so that when we DO finally get blessed with children, we can be sympathetic, understanding, and encourging to the women who will be filling the shoes we were once in.

When I was in the hospital for those days when I had my meltdown it was hard...knowing that I'd have to face exactly what put me there again. And face pregnant women all over the place, and friends getting pregnant for 3rd, 4th, 5th, and 6th times. But...I'm here

I hold to faith in knowing that God would NEVER give me such a strong desire and heart to be a mommy if He was not going to release that blessing to me someday. And THAT is what keeps me going. Knowing that someday sweet little children will be in my life and I will be their mommy.

So, I encourage you. Don't give up....even though there will be times you'll want to...If you need a break, take one because the stress from the journey can break you. And DREAM BIG. From the color of their eyes, to their unique laugh and cry. It will happen, your day will come.
~Nikki

[punkepooh]

Thank you nikki

[LeanyBean]

Erin,
We are not tired of your vents. We all have to vent and mostly it's about what haunts our lives. For you it's babies and pregnancy, for me it's annoying government b.s. I cannot tell you when it won't hurt anymore. It may never stop. It may gradually decrease over time. Emotionally pain is something none of us can cure. We just hug and cry and laugh and vent.
We still love you and it's nice to have you around. We're all here to support one another in good times and in bad. Kind of like a large sexless group marriage.
I know you've heard many many pieces of advice but all I can say is 'Have Faith'. Have Faith in yourself. Have Faith that you currently don't have children for a specific reason. Have Faith that a higher power has a great and wonderous plan for you. Have Faith in everything you do. Once you lose faith,it is a quick and hard downward spiral. So just keep your faith and try not to get upset with the cosmos for things you cannot control.




Sending Lots of Love
Have Faith

Arlene

[landj111]

I feel the exact same way. It seems like everyone around me is pg except for me.

[MommyDee]

I can't say that I know exactly what you're going through (although I did experience similar feelings after my m/c when I found out my SIL was expecting again). I can tell you that the rest of us hurt for you when we see you going through this.

I watched my cousin go through infertility and grieved for her every time she had a setback. Ten years, repeat surgeries, various fertility drugs, and one miscarriage later, she and her DH had finally given up on getting pregnant and started on the road to adoption.

A VERY short time after, she found out she was expecting -- courtesy of Mother Nature, nothing else.
Two weeks later, we found out it was twins.
Her girlies will be four this year.

The powers-that-be, whatever you believe in, work in very mysterious ways. I can't say it will stop hurting, but I can only imagine how much sweeter it will be when your turn finally comes around.

Lots of love and luck, we're always here for you.

[Tracey with 6]

Vent away lovey, we all feel that way , 3 years here and no it never goes away , sometimes I feel at peace with it, but honestly I don't know if I will ever get past it, and I already have 6 , which makes me feel like a fraud her, but I'm not i would love more , I crave it with every ounce of my being . good luck and I hope our dreams come true